well i'm here in out 4 times the library a few days before finals week starts, and i'm thinking about how fast this semester went by and how so much has happened. i've only seen my family about 4 times since the new year. and now it's just weeks from the next new year, and i don't see that changing at all. that's one of the reasons why i'm thinking about moving back with my mom. i think it's great here...i have a job, and am getting an education, and have a nice place to stay, etc. but i don't know if i'll go back home after school, or stay here, or go somewhere else...so i'm going home for a few days this christmas, and see how i feel about it before the next semester starts.

in other news, i'm thinking of acquiring an android cell phone some time soon... i feel like it's time to upgrade. considering i'm still using a flip phone that barely has mobile internet.

also, i apparently went full time at my job...without being asked. not that i mind or anything, but it's things like these that make me wish i worked at a publix or a walmart or some big corporation that was organized. and it doesn't help that now the majority of my hours are coming from the fact that i'm the dish washer. and i'm not even like an expert at it...nothing extraordinary. but yet, i'm now doing it 5 days a week. i was hired as a server/cashier, and i only have 2 shifts as a cashier... on the weekends. prob so no one can see me. cuz i'm such the dish washer these days fml

now i'm not complaining about having a job, but i wonder sometimes how i ended up where i am. in the end though, i do enjoy my job for the most part. it's great to socialize, and just be around people. sure it's a job, but it's pretty stress-free when i do the dishes and i enjoy going.

with that being said, i'm looking for a new job. i do want some types of benefits...maybe even a raise even it's just ten cents. the place i work at doesn't offer anything like that. and i want opportunities to advance and move up, you know....

well for anyone who read this, thanks for reading. feel free to share what's up in your life, because i would love to read

i haven't been on here in so long that i didn't even remember how to post something...

but i guess i'm back for real this time.

i've been here at college for over a year now, and i'm just now finally getting settled. idk if that's a good thing or a bad thing. but i have a lot of thoughts and not many people to share them with, so i'm excited to post them here.

and did anyone know about cyber monday yesterday? i had no idea until today :( is it new? does anyone know? :(

Well these past two weeks have been possibly the worst ever. Or at least in a long time. Basically my boyfriend and I broke up, and my parents are getting a divorce. the second one is the most uncool. But I'm working on the whole distraction thing.

I am in this campus ministry called Navigators. It is really exciting. And I do a girls bible study through it also. I go to concerts and movies more, and hang with my roommate. I keep in better contact with friends from home. Go to football games too. I try not to be sad...

I like living on campus, and I love being away from home.. idk what else to say.. I'm trying to put off a math quiz

I decided to try a new tactic to get closer with my family.. Just ignore it when they ignore me and keep being friendly. It was mostly just one of my brothers who would flat out ignore me and then be a jerk whenever i talked to him. So the other day, I was just nice to him. I didn't straight up talk to him, but I was friendly.. If that makes any sense. I think it might have worked. Although I don't know for sure because he goes to work with my dad during the week, so i don't see him.

And I spent like $10 on itunes downloading thse christmas songs sung by disney cartoons... and then i bought some exciting games for my ipod. a lot of buying going on... :p

i'm going to one of those women doctors today.. i don't know if i'm scared or not. :p

tomorrow's christmas eve! i'm volunteering at the hospital that day. it should be exciting. :D

i'm going to FSU next year..for sure. i'm in the honors program there, and yesterday i found out that i have an $8,000 scholarship there. It should work out.

and finally, i broke my codes. i had chocolate. D:  i don't even know why i did.. it was a bad idea. most people don't understand why i don't eat junk food. they automatically assume that it's because i want to watch my weight or something, and then the whole 'you're too skinny to be worrying about your weight' thing comes in. I just do it because I want to be healthy. I don't see anything wrong with that. and plus, i always feel sick when i have chocolate. i hate when people jump to conclusions like that. :/

and this brings me to something else. my height is always brought up! i'm only 5 freaking 9 (almost 10). it's not like i'm ashamed of my height or something, but people are always saying how abnormal it is..blahblah. like i don't know. it's always like 'wow, you're tall' or 'why are you so tall?'  maybe this means that i'm insecure about it. idk. i just hate it.

this kind of turned into a list of just random stuff in my mind with no point really..

so i started running/jogging everyday with my brother. we go about half a mile everyday for now.. (and now, as i'm typing this, i've realized that i forgot to go today..). it's pretty cool..we're trying to get fit. :D

school is just..there. not much to add.

i'm reading the kite runner, the vampire diaries, and kissed by an angel. and i've still been watching keith countless times (it's a movie, in case you don't know). :D

recently, i just haven't had the patience to actually sit down for long lengths of time and do stuff on the computer. but have no fear, i'm actually saving up to buy an ipod touch so i can be portable. :p

well i now have to return to my studies of the spanish language. :D